Friends

(work in progress due to the fact I am at work)


Kira almost made me cry last night, but in the good way cry. She said that she has this vision in her head pretty much since the time that she met me of what the "perfect" guy for me will be like; that she wont let me "settle" will not let me date anyone that isn't the best out there for me. When I find that certain someone, he is going to be all about me, and treat me better than anything or anyone else (besides himself). He'll have a job be able to support himself, not take anything for granted, appreciate the little things life has to offer. He'll pamper me but also let me pamper him, romance me but allow me to also romance him, surprise me but also let me surprise him, sing to me and let me play the banjo/piano or even dance for him ( I would sing if i could)

He will get down and party with me and my/his friends, but also does not party 24-7 knows how to balance it with other things, has a good head on his shoulders. Our personalities will balance each-other out and make each-other be the best we can be, constantly smiling, filled with laughter, always viewing things positively and having fun/a good time no matter what situation we are in. Kira went on saying how she hated seeing how I was treated in the past and though it may take a long time till this person comes into my life, it will be worth it, because she said I deserve it. She also mentioned that the guy she had envisioned in her head as the perfect person for me, looks at me in the eyes when I talk, remembers the little things I say, someone who is all about me, but at the same time to is independent and doesn't mind letting me have a girl's night and I won't mind if he goes out with the guys. Someone who views the world in the same way I do. Someone who can handle my bouncy crazy klutzy personality... Someone who does not think I am insane for liking penguins, someone who agrees with me that having a penguin be in my wedding (as the ring bearer) be amazing.

She went on and I started to tear up with tears of joy/happiness that someone wants the best for me, and said she'll stand up for me and hurt any guy who hurts me.
We talked about our previous relationships and how much we have grown from the past experiences, and how we both look out for one another. How we've both been to hell and back again and how its only made us that much stronger and given us a new perspective on the world. That we wont jut be in a relationship to be in one, that we are strong individuals who don't need a title/status to make us happy, though it would be nice. Life is short, and one should never settle for anything less than you deserve; no I am not saying people should have a holier than thou attitude, but just remember you only have yourself in this life, and one can not truly be happy with someone else unless they are happy with themselves.


"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else."- Judy Garland

"The credit belongs to those who are actually in the arena, who strive valiantly; who know the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spend themselves in a worthy cause; who at the best, know the triumph of high achievement; and who, at the worst, if they fail, fail while daring greatly, so that their place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat."- Theodore Roosevelt


It's hard to find those friends out there who are always there for you no matter what, ones whom you never argue with or get mad at, ones where you can just sit there and not talk and the air is free from awkwardness. Ones who will stand up for you, will go talk to that cute guy/girl you like, make an ass out of themselves. Sometimes you even have a coded/secret language, or can even have sympathy pains/read eachother's mind. As Stympie from Little Rascals said "You only meet your once in a lifetime friends... once in a lifetime." I have been fortunate to meet a few of those once in a life time friends, I hate naming names here because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, but to me those friends are Kira, Jason, Davey, and Jenny. They are those people who you want to be in you life for the rest of your life, ones whom you can't imagine living without them. Whether its because they spent almost every single day with you for over 3 years would even walking/breaking into your dorm or house room at 3am just to say hi and you don't care; One who would drive out of their way, hours on end in a snow storm just to help cheer you up/ be there for you to make you smile; One who you met through a band (guilty pleasure band at the time), both worked in the music industry, and even though you don't see eachother often you still are best friends and would take a bullet for them and are so glad they are in your life; or someone whom you met via the vent systems in the dorms/shared a wall with and are attached at the hip and help balances each other out, and gets crazy with you, my support system. I also forgot to mention kendra, me running away from home to send the weekend in San Diego, OB1 oh man or how we always seemed to run into each other in Hillcrest :)